Hey, cass, response 2 u'r entry on u'r blog (not dat u need 1, i'll make it pink 2, but, yuck. same format & all)

WHY IS MY LIFE SO PATHETIC?

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i feel...

1. betrayed
> I DO NOT STICK AROUND WITH ANYAN LIKE LOVERS. AND YOU ARE NOT THE 3RD WHEEL, GEDDIT?

2. angry
> lost what freedom of expression? you still joke, and you still laugh, and finally... YOU'RE STILL CASS!!!

3. dumb {can't talk}
> hello? you actually don't think twice when you talk to me...

4. unfunny
> what do you mean "i can't laugh like before"? watch MinChih's Harry Potter videos on her blog, that'll make you laugh HARDER than before.

5. loved
> now that's the correct attitude. I wonder what's wrong with you today...

6. helped
> how does we hating Winnie help at all? But, glad to be of help!!!

7. sick
> try eating a queen ant, then wait for your sister to dump some wet sand (with who-knows-what's in it) into your mouth, after that, it won't be that sick anymore.

8. hated
> everyone will be hated, but cheer up! Someone LUUUUUUUURVES you! You go around loving people, why can't you just love YOURSELF?

9. dead
> trust me, my blog is definitely deader than you.
so... remember my blog ((:






see how much people love you?
so what if this year is PSLE year?
so what about what adults say?
are you actually creating trouble?
being yourself is not as HARD as you think.

ummm... why would a fish be squashed in the first place? I mean, it's not as if you'd let Sean Seet sit on your plate of fish, right?
you want to get rid of yourself?
which side?
the funny or the NOT funny?
you can concentrate on PSLE even if you ARE an idiot...







argggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i want my cass back, i want all the fun i rightfully deserve
i'm comforting you (depends on your p.o.v. at least)

AHHHHHHH

i know you're not depressed and you don't need to see a PROFESSIONAL psychiatrist. you need to see UNprofessional psychiatrists, like me (or my blog, for the matter)!
sometimes stress is good.


if anybody wants to kill you
i won't let them either, cos' you are my BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE UNIVERSE (excluding Rachel and AnYan)!

if anybody wants to harm you
i'll fight for you.

you will never let go
unless I (and God, of course, but you won't bear to see your best friend suffer, would ya?) tell you to

no way are you going to let go of your life just because someone threatens you to.

Think of all the food you can gorge if you're alive!

i'm not emo anymore.........

......to even look at the food

sheesh, i can't believe anyone would smile, is it by any chance Winni?
I wonder, too

okay anyway,
YOU were all crapped up

anyway, Cass, that was a nice morale booster.

it's all my opinion. thx, 4 reading.

Worm in my food! Argh!

Actually, it''s not my food, it's Cass', and it happened yesterday so it's a delayed message that I want to get across. NEVER EVER BUY FOOD FROM STALL 5 ANYMORE, THEY DON'T GIVE A WHINNY ABOUT HYGIENE, THEY ONLY CARE ABOUT MONEY, THOSE MONEY MINDED, SELF-CENTRED, EGOISTIC PEOPLE RUNNING STALL 5. THEY SUCK, I CAN ASSURE YOU. There, done. I think I got my message across... to no one at all. Because no one comes to my blog. At all.

My blog is gonna die in like
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10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 BOOM! My blog is officially dead! Woot! The enemies of me and my blog are rejoicing! (I don't get what's there to rejoice about, I mean, a DEATH! even of a blog's it's still a death, and that's murder. Some are responsible but all are guilty [Wait, it's the opposite, some are quilty, but all are responsible, or is it? I'm confused...]! You people are all guilty and responsible for the murder of my blog, why, you vicious blood sucking pigs! I'M GONNA KILL YA!

So anyway, Linkin Park rocks because they chose a place where there would be very little litter to perform! Woot! LINKIN PARK RAWKS LIKE MAD! So continuing, Linkin Park is very smart.

[School]
1) This morning, Glor (or was it someone else? anyway, it doesn't really matter) borrowed YT's Maths paper for some only God-knows-what reasons
2) Then she asked me to give it back to YT
3) I passed it to Gary
4) For some weird reasons, when we were walking up the spiral stairs, Samuel came up to Cass and I
5) He said," I put YT's paper in Nick's bag. See his reaction when he finds out."
6) Then of course, we due to our wild imgination started to picture the scene
7) Then when Nick got back to class, he opened his bag
8) The first thing he saw was.....
9) YT's paper!!!
10) Clumsily pushed into his bag, stuffed, more like
11) Then he pushed it to Samuel/Darren as if it was some kind transmitable cancer or some kind of VERY fatal (note VERY) virus
12) They pushed it back
13) This went on for about, hmm...7 seconds
14) Then YT went to take her paper back
15) Then I shot Gary a look
16) I mean, how could the paper have landed in their hands when I gave it to him, not them?
17) He pointed to Samuel, Darren and Alex
18) Then he said,"They snatched it from me!"
19) Whoever the heck 'THEY' is I don't know
20) But I thank them for a good start of a boring day and week at school

LOL and this is how the very exciting, more exciting than fire breathing dragons and damsels in distress, story ends. It didn't have a happy ending, we were all so sad when it ended, it was funny, but, shouldn't you people stop teasing poor YT and start to treat her not like dirt (but not like a queen either) but like a NORMAL person?

I mean, she's okay, not that bad. But, NOBODY'S PERFECT! And no, Cass, ZB, my poor little puny mind isn't corrupted by all her talk about what a poor little thing she is.

Come one, she's just a girl, but anyway, a normal girl would have someone like her, and very very VERY surprisingly, someone DOES like her. Not obliged to disclose the person's name. Well, but that means... I'M NOT A NORMAL GIRL!

Well, of course I'm not, no normal girl would go gaga about some metal, non-chinese, all male bands like LINKIN PARK and MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE! But both Linkin Park and My Chemical Romance still rock so much! I overheard some girls from NanYang talking about My Chemical Romance's 'Teenagers' and one of the girls wanted it, badly. =) I'm so lucky to have that song.

Hmm... I seem to be getting to know quite some inside information about some people, like who likes YT and who Hernes is...

Anybody fancy to tell me more about their love or secret life? I would be glad to keep it but not to disclose it. So far I haven't disclosed anything about YT's secret admirer or Hernes.

Go GREEN DAY! (No, I'm not talking about the band)

Wow! Live Earth was so cool! Did you watch Linkin Park perform live?

Songs Linkin Park played on air, in order
1) Somewhere I Belong
2) Breaking the Habit
3) Numb (RAWKS!)
4) One Step Closer
5) In the End
6) What I've Done (their most meaningful song so far, about what humans have done XP)

I was thinking, "What had singing got to do with saving the Earth when I heard 'What I've Done'. The meaning of the song should be quite clear if you watch the video and find out the lyrics. Man, Linkin Park RAWKS! Linkin Park performed in Tokyo, if you must know. Live Earth showed Linkin Park at around 21:30, ended at about 22:08. That performance was so cool, especially Breaking the Habit, the starting of that song was changed and it rawks so much! Call me a rawky kind of person!

And there was this band called Nunatak and they actually played in Antartica! Imagine how cold it'll be! The members of the band were actually supposed to be working in Antartica for dunno what reasons, research, most likely. That was probably the coolest performance in the whole show figuratively except for Linkin Park but the coolest literally, it's the only band which performs on ICE!

This video by jd rawks!

This is one cool Sims 2 video to the song of Helena (as if anyone comes to my blog...) by My Chemical Romance, really touching plot, you can even cry (but of course, some 'macho' boys like Alex would defy it, right?). So anyway, if you want to know the plot (the video is darn confusing), go to :http://www.jd-movies.com/helenaexplained.html. To clarify, Gerard is the lead vocalist for My Chemical Romance. Thanks for your attention. Now shut off the mic. JUST WATCH IT! IT RAWKS! IT TOUCHES HEARTS!

My O so dormant blog (online diary, in case you don't know)

I feel so shitty today. What the hell, I said the 'f' word! Well, you see, it's more like sang, but it's still the 'f' word! I'm so dead! I was singing 'I'm Not Okay (I Promise)' by 'My Chemical Romance' during English and there was this 'f' word in the song and I accidentally said (okay! sang) it. I'm so dead. Now press the repeat button to hear this freakin' message again.

I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit tonight

O yeah, I'm trying to break the habit of saying the 'f' word (but I haven't said it ever since and I haven't said it before either...). I feel so guilty, I misplaced my parents', God's, my friends' and my trust into the bin! Oh my gosh! I'm so dead. (Press repeat to hear 'I'm so dead' again.) Hmmm, maybe we should make a song called 'I'm so dead'. Nice title anyway (even if the song is not). I hate it when all my song ideas come rushing to me at night, at that time, I don't want to get up and guess what ? (It's not much of a guess but) I forgot all about ithem tht next day. I so hat myself. Why at night? Why not in the morning then I can write them down?

Today was cool, we learnt how to draw Manga. Oops, I forgot to go to www.mangaka.sg (is that the webby?). I admit, it was a little boring, I didn't draw one eye one eye, one nose one nose, one mouth one mouth and so on. I immediately started on the person. And I drew another just just now! (the 'just' was supposed to be repeated). I drew some kind of super hero called 'Ruby Black'. Of course, I'd colour her red and black. Then I plan on making a character called 'Emerald Blue'. She'll be Green and Blue, of course. Maybe I sould make a guy? Something like...dunno. Maybe instead I should make the band members of my band Suffocation Squared! Yo! How cool is that? I'll just make Hernes faceless! Haha! Na. I'll just make him a face... any face will do for him.

Rubber(bands)

I got tired of seeing black and white and black and white and black and white and black and white and...

You get the idea, I don't think you'll like my blog picture (nobody ever comes to my blog!) but anyway, it's my style, LINKIN PARK! It rawks! It's not professional because I did it myself, just take some pictures and mix them together. But anyway, it's still Linkin Park and that's what matters, maybe I'll make a My Chemical Romance one, hmm... good idea, I'll go ahead.

Some of you out there (well, most of you, that is) don't like Linkin Park, you only like Numb, if I'm not wrong, those who came to my blog when it was born. Just born. A newborn...

So, need to sleep, it's 23:44 now. But I'm not tired, and I'm amazed. Well, not actually, I slept for 2 hours after I came back from school. It's 23:45...

Does the walker choose the path or the path the walker?

In case you're wondering where I got such a nice title (look, the rest of my titles were all crap, weren't they?), I got it from the Old Kingdom series by Garth Nix, that writer rocks! There's also another series by him which consists of 'Mister Monday', 'Grim Tuesday' and 'Drowned Wednesday'. I wonder if there is another book...

Anyway, to Kim: Yeah, I agree, 'Sabriel' and 'Abhorsen' rock more more than 'Lirael', my favourite is 'Sabriel'. I borrowed them from the library, and I have to return by 1st July. XP, but I read finish already.

There's nothing much eventful today, except for the Science lesson at school. Man! That burning cup was so cool! I mean, you could actually toast Nick over that fire (no kidding, he's so thin)! You could see it crumble to ashes, wow! It still glowed red after it turned black! You can actually see the flames licking the cup (which if I'm not wrong has pictures of tangram formations on it)! That was my favourite part of the whole lesson, save the talking with Cass and YT telling us to shut up. Come on! She herself can't even speak loud enough for me to hear when I'm only about half a table away (we leaned over, you see). =X

The revision paper's Q12.a and Q13.b were tough (as in the sense that I know the concept but I don't know how to phrase for Q13.b, Q12.a I completely have no idea what she is trying to see).

LINKIN PARK ROCKS! Once again, I don't know where that came from, ignore it. Cass (if you're even there), I did it! I got the key into that lock! Problem is, I cannot get it out. Thank goodness for my brother, if not I think it'll still be stuck there, and it IS still stuck there. I put it back in again, and once more, I don't know how to take it out. Sigh. XP I think I'll go get my brother, but first, a list of things that I need to do...

1) Print out 'How to buy a healthy kitten' and 'Letter from Margot'.
2) Pack my room.
3) Complete the constuction question in Maths revision paper (but first I have to find it, I have forgotten where I had dumped it after completing it...)
4) GET THE KEY OUT OF THE KEYHOLE!
5) Find another battery for my mp.3 so I can...
6) LISTEN TO MORE LINKIN PARK AND MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE SONGS (not that I'm not listening to it right now, cos' I am)!

Short post, but a post nontheless (sp?), unlike some people who completely and conviniently forget to post (if you're one of them, sorry for insulting).

Check out my list of favourite songs!

okay, calm down, i dunno where that came frm but it's frm the bottom of my heart. I'm feeling the need to write more proper English now, maybe it's because school is starting soon.

WOOT WOOT WOOT!

Now I think school is great, because that teacher Pat back at JC just...just...just...brings the hell out of me. When she says 'perfect', she pronounces it as 'perfeck'. No no, the 'e' is meant to be there, not the 'u'. She goes around asking: Am I pretty? I mean, what does she EXPECK (with the crabby patty accent) us to say? She is pretty? If you don't know how she looks like, go to my sister's blog. She's the total complete opposite! Even an idiot would have realized that! Oops, I didn't meant to call crabby patty an idiot, but really! She can't even tell that she's NOT pretty!

Anyway, today at JC, we was supposed to present on a country that we were supposed to be 'going' to. So anyway, I just found out that a 2 way ticket to London costs $2,900 Singapore dollars, anybody fancy a trip there? Well, I don't. My whole group wasn't here so lucky me, I didn't need to present (although crabby patty wanted me to present, but the supervisor let me NOT present).

There was one group, who presented on Beijing, China. First, they talked about the History of China. Wah, it was so boring. I mean, the history of China stretches back so long! Ms Tang (the supervisor) asked them to procede to the next thing after the history after about 6 minutes of complete ranting about the history, which I think wasn't even half of it, I think if they had continued, the history would last until 16:00. (for your information, they started at about 14: 43). Then after that, they launched into the places of interests, which were all temples, Lotus temple, dunno what temple, and a lot more. Imagine if they really went to Beijing and someone video them and put them on air. That show would gain a title called: Temples of Beijing, instead of Tour of Beijing. They were so monotone, so boring, I'll bet my life that if they were ever hired to speak on air, they'll be fired the moment they start. That whole cut-short-a-lot presentation laster for about 20 minutes, imagine if Ms Tang hadn't stop their ranting about the history and temples. They might just still be ranting off right now, if I'm not wrong, they'd be locked in and cannot go home...

I'm listening to 'In the End', now my brother's 9th favourite song, my 10th. People say that 'In the End' is the best Linkin Park song, well, I still think 'Numb' is the best, but you'll like 'In the End' a lot, trust me, hardly any screaming, if I'm not wrong, none at all. Best be save I'll rate it: Not suitable for the delicate mind. 'A Place for my Head' coming up... that song rawks too. In case you don't know, 'In the End' is a Single, you can find a lot of that song on YouTube, partly because it rawks! Sadly, 'A Place for my Head' is not a Single. But you can try listening to 'One Step Closer' too. That's also on YouTube. But 'One Step Closer' has the words 'shut up' repeated about 19 times. But the song's not bad, go listen to it, it's my 2nd favourite song, my brother's favourite. Partly because some of the actions by Chester was so funny (my brother and I agreed on it). Linkin Park songs supply me with lots of inspiration for my band songs!

When the paper's crumpled up it can't be perfect again

Don't forget inspiration from My Chemical Romance! My Chemical Romance rawks too, especially 'Mama' (it's a little wild, but there's no 'f' word in this song unlike some of their other nice songs, it reminds me a little of the 'Phantom of the Opera'...), hang on a moment, I haven't edited my favourite songs list in a long time! So anyway, gotta go! Death awaits me if I linger staring at the computer screen for too long, death that comes in the form of MY SISTER! But I'll never forget my band, though I have a feeling that it will tear apart because of us going to Sec schools... man, why such and inauspicious time to set up a band?

So anyway, WELCOME BACK! I'm back to writing long posts! I'm throwing a welcome back party for myself! Hope my post didn't bore you out. (Who am I typing to? Nobody ever comes to my blog now adays. I'm practically kidding the life out of myself.) But then again, I like my new sense of humor (which is not very obvious, there is meant to be one in this sentence alone) that I added into this post. I still think I suck at making people laugh, unless... I make a total fool of myself, but of course, that doesn't sit well with me. I'll rather sit with regret, or even DEATH! Well, I've edited this post about 2 times after I published it, I must say, I have a lot to say.

Men(tal)

hey, i jus wanna say, IS THE PIC THAT I MADE NICE?

fine, i noe it's all word and not that great but seriously, i made it myself.

i had forgotten i had de brains to think up of some words that completely make no sense or what so eva to u ppl out dere.

i jus love de stuff dat i make.

yes, if u'r thinking wat i'm thinking, i'm thinking that i'm too ego.

y am i toking 2 myself?!?

i must be crazy, yes that's it.

de reason 2 y i'm toking (rather typing) 2 myself.

i'm mental.

Call de ambulance! emergency admittance!

bye bye!

dis may b de las of my u'll see until my next post or till sch starts

(p.s. i dunno y (i think it's cos' i'm mental), but i miss sch n i want it 2 start! i can't stand de thot of going 2 sec sch...)

I-can't-be-bothered-to-think-of-a-title-but-I-already-created-a-title day

2day we went 2 the Singapore Science Centre to do some pond study. The funniest part was the slideshow. It was so funny lah! U noe, the slideshow covers everything that we have learnt, and it's supposed 2 b Secondary standard! And there's something about the lady doing the commentation's voice that makes it so funny, is it that she keeps on repeating sucking out the body juices or what? But that part was sick. =P

The worst part was catching the animals. Man! That sucked! 8 of the 11 animals that Jazlene and I got in our net escaped. We caught about 6 jumping insects (but 5 escaped), was it a pond skater? Once I got one in the bottle but it jumped and then I released it, it fell 1 metre and guess what? It escaped. *Sigh* If not 4 that lady in pink shirt, we would only have caught 2 animals. I almost caught some kind of a species of water spider. Sigh, so many got away. XP

Another song?
It was only a dream
One very big and special dream
A dream that everybody has
To have a sense of belonging
It's pathetic, I know
But it's true
I'm asking for too much
Far far too much, way too much

It's so much easier to stand up
And shield others
Than it is for me
To stand up for myself
I can't pretend any longer
I'm not who I was
Change is the word
I've disappeared

I thought I had everything I wanted in life
I thought I had become what I want to be
Then everything had to crumble to dust
You had to take everything from me

I know what you're thinking
That I'm everything but alive
That's what I thought so too
And that's what I still think I am
It's pathetic, I know
But it's true
I'm asking for too much
Far far too much, way too much

It's so much easier to stand up
And take the blame
Than it is for me
To stand up for myself
I can't pretend any longer
I'm not who I was
Change is the word
I've disappeared

I thought I had everything I wanted in life
I thought I had become what I want to be
Then everything had to crumble to dust
You had to take everything from me

How can I be what you want me to be
When you never groomed me
I've been kept in the dark long enough
For me to know what's for laugh
It's me, I'm the joke
I was, I am and I always will be
The light failed me
But it's meant to be

How can I be what you want me to be
When you never groomed me
I've been kept in the dark long enough
For me to know what's for laugh
It's me, I'm the joke
I was, I am and I always will be
The light failed me
But it's meant to be

Anyway, updating u ppl on the band, we've got a new member, and he is Hernes. We're not going 2 give his identity thank you. He does the guitars. I'm not going 2 disclose anymore information. If you want 2 join (which I'm sure u don't), contact us @ the tagbox of our blog.

thirsty n in pain

2 anybody hu comes 2 my blog, is it better if i use short forms n dun capitalise or jus rite in proper english? if i actually get in2 a habit of doing short forms, i think maybe i would use 'em in exams. den die liao. XP so, short forms or proper english?

'RACHELLE AND THE BATTLE OF THE LANGUAGE'

is it a little crazy?

yesterday nite until 2day morn i watched 'School of Rock'. dat was 1 interesting show.

'bout dis man (Dewey Finn [sp?]) hu got kicked out of his rock band, he assumed de personality of his good fren (Ned Sneebly [sp?]) hu lets him dun pay his rent (Ned's gf seriously opposes dis) and wen 2 work in a sch as a teacher. his class (of 10 year olds) is very talented @ music, he rounded 'em up n made a band called 'School of Rock'. he tricked the pupils in2 believing (bcos' dat's his challange [he told his band mates dat he'll make a band better dan theirs']) dat dere is an assignment 'bout rock bands so dey'll work hard. he arranged 4 'em 2 compete @ de 'BATTLE OF THE BANDS'. but de day b4 de competition, dere is a 'meet de parents' day. he almost got caught by de police 4 impersonating Ned (Ned's gf called de cops). de whole class was very disappointed. but dey wen 2 de competition anyway after picking a very reluctant Dewey from his home. b4 dey performed, their parents were informed dat de whole class was missing, so de parents wen 2 de 'BATTLE OF THE BANDS' n watch their children perform. when dey saw de performance, dey very happy. dey 'show everybody what we were'. dey lost, but de crowd wanted an encore (another song/repeat) from de 'School of Rock'. THE END!

(trust me, de show is more interesting dan how i described it. my description was boring, ain't it?)

how i wish Suffocation Squared can b as successful as de 'School of Rock'.

How evil am I? Mua ha ha ha evil or *Cackle!* evil?

-You've broken the law:
I... I... I... dunno

-You've looked at nudie pics online:
Never. Nudie pics suck.

-You've secretly wished someone harm:
Yes. My sis.

-You've kissed someone you shouldn't be kissing:
Didn't. WHY ON EARTH WOULD I BE KISSING ANYBODY?!?

-You've said something so mean it made someone cry:
I don't think so, but others have said things to me though.

-You've done illegal drugs:
Never will.

-You've killed a bug:
Yeah. Once I chewed on a queen ant. It tasted horrible and vile and it stung. NEVER EAT AN ANT!

-You've spit in someone's drink:
No. I wouldn't like people to do that to me.

-You've sought revenge on someone:
Most of the time on my sister over accidental kicks and punches. I return it, hard.

-You've made a prank phone call:
No, no guts.

-You've turned people against someone:
Yes. Forgot who already.

-You've illegally downloaded music online:
No. I don't know how to.

-You've flirted with someone to make someone else jealous:
No. Flirting is not cool.

-You've told racist / sexist jokes:
If I did, then I don't remember.

-You've called someone the "c" word:
What's the 'c' word?

-You've made a promise you knew you were going to break:
I don't like to break promises or lie.

-You've done the "walk of shame"
What the hell is a "walk of shame"?

-You've corrupted a minor:
Well, yeah. Does having gangsterlike tattoos on my hand and shoulder in a corridoor in the Singapore National Eye Center with many kids consider?

-You've divulged someone's dark secret:
Yeah. I've told others who my sister likes - Ryan Oh. (What's his surname again?)

-You've made fun of a retarded person:
NO! Why would anybody do that?

-You've cheated on a test... or a lover:
LOVER MY FOOT! I haven't even found love! I've cheated on 听写. XP

-You don't believe in God:
No. I believe in God. God rocks.

-You hate kids:
No. I'm a kid myself. Why would I hate myself?

-You've gotten in a fist fight:
No. Mostly feet fight. Sister.

-You made someone's life hell in school:
Quite the contrary, I made a friend's life in school heaven.

-You've shoplifted or stolen from someone:
Never in my life.

-You've been so drunk you couldn't remember the night before:
I never drink.

-You've vandalized someone's car or house:
Yes. I don't know whether you count drawing on your school tables as vandalism because I do that all the time.

-You've made fun of a fat person:
Yes. Primary school.

-You have a fondness for disturbing pictures / anime:
YOU ACCUSE ME OF THAT AND YOU'RE DEAD!

-You've blamed a fart on someone else:
Not really, I just pretend that I didn't fart.

-You enjoy setting things on fire:
No. Definitely not.

-You've been arrested:
No. What the hell would I be arrested for?

-You've secretly backstabbed a friend:
What is backstabbing?

-You would choose your life over the lives of 100,000 strangers:
No. I'd rather die. Death is imminent and it cannot be avoided.

-You would kill for 1,000,000 if you were guaranteed not to get caught:
Money sucks.

-You've harmed yourself to get attention:
I harm myself all the time but I'm not sure about attention. +)

-You have a nemesis:
Sister. And Winifred.

-You believe in an eye for an eye... or even more for an eye:
No. But I do take revenge, still.

-You don't think lying to a stranger is a big deal:
In fact I do think it is a big deal, lying is a bad thing.

-You think giving to the homeless is wasting money:
No. I'm so surprised at myself for not checking that box.

-You'll pick evil over stupid any day:
No never.

-You aren't bothered by seeing others in pain:
I am bothered by pain you idiot.

-You'd rather have world domination than world peace:
For this, I'll be really honest and say I'd rather have peace. I hate domination because it makes you famous and you look like a dork in history textbooks.

-You enjoy very violent video games:
No. I don't even play them/

-You are disgusted by weak people:
No. I always feel sympathy.

-You would keep a wallet full if cash if it came your way:
No. Just returnit to the lost and found corner. Maybe you'll get a prize, but I've never gotten one for all the honesty I've shown. sigh.

-You rather harm an enemy than help a friend:
No. I have christian morals to follow.

-You've shot a gun... and liked it:
I've never shot anything before.

-You'd rather be a supervillian than a superhero:
Villians might be a fun role to play...

Choppers

helicopters a.k.a. choppers, have nothing 2 do wif my life. jus so u noe. =)

Just so you know, this feeling's taking control of me...

yea yea. de feelin' 2 put dat title. so, long time no post, i reckon no one's comin' 2 my blog anymore?

Wouldn't it be great if we were dead...

u noe, i don't like most bands/singers which are...
1) Chinese band/singers
2) All-female bands (wat if Suffocation Squared becomes an all female band?!? SCREAM! maybe hernes would so kindly comply 2 de band?)
3) Non-metel/emo/punk/alternative/alternative rock/pop punk/punk rock/comedy/Christian songs.
Final clarification, I don't like Avril Lavigne, S.H.E. (srry cass, i noe u like 'em) and Jo Jo (srry MC).

y am i telling u all this, not as if all of u gonna send me songs, rite? i'm bored outta my wits end.

Put your name to shame, cover up your face, you can't run the race, the pace is too fast, you just won't last...

You like to think you're never wrong...

You want to act like you're someone...

You want someone to hurt like you...

You want to share what you've been through...

My life, my pride is broken!

sigh, exactly like winifred... she changed sooooooooo much over the december hols.

.:BIG EVENT OF THE DAY!!!:.
2day i went 2 de Singapore National Eye Center to check my eye. sigh. degrees go up 4 both left and right eye, 100 and 50 respectively, now degrees is 850 and 800 respectively.
darn, i love my right eye.
doctor says eyesight is stabalizing.
i feel like laughing. increase so much still say stabalize.
den i had 2 put 6 eyedrops in each eye, 2 of 'em (de drops) stug my eyes like xiao. consider u'rself lucky if u dun hav 2 go 2 dat eye center. dey torture u'r eye like xiao. now my pupils become larger and will stay larger until earliest 2morrow, vision become blur, den my eyes receive 2 much lite, so brite. den dey shine de light in2 my eyes, my iris cannot contract (dey become relax after de eyedrop), den brite like xiao, dey dun let me blink. humph!

I wanna run away and never say goodbye

I wanna run away and never wonder why

I wanna run away and open up my MIND! [change dat 2 'I wanna run away and start to close my eyes ;)]

Linkin Park rocks! I dun noe where dat came frm, dun ask me. i jus listening 2 their song only, not against de law. wow. finally dere is a post.

AT LAST! THE LONG NOT-AWAITED POST IS FINALLY HERE!

I want to heal, I want to feel what I thought was never real, I want to let go of the pain I've felt so long...

I'll Carry On

This blog might seem awfully quiet to you...cos' I've taken out the 'Welcome to the Black Parade' song so that it would not distract the video above.

For those who missed out the fun of Hossan Leong's 'Don't talk cock' in Parliament 'speech', this is really funny. =) For those hu failed their SS. +)

I'll carry on, even though my freaky mother wants me to go to Chinese tuition. XP I'm gonna die, HELP SAVE ME! This is probably my shortest post in like a million years. You can wait another million (divided by 365,000,000) years for the nest post. Which should be 2 morrow, if you calculated correctly minusing th leap years. So, bb! Enjoy the show!

My what-kind-of-friend-am-i test results

You Are A Loyal Sidekick

While you aren't the most visable one in your group...You're always up for a good time or conversationAnd you stick with your friends no matter whatYou may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

All true...

On Average, You Would Sell Out For

$1,123,950

At What Price Would You Sell Out?

I thought I would sell out at less than 1 cent...

You Are 72% Creative

You are beyond creative. You are a true artist - even if it's not in the conventional sense of the word.You love creating for its own sake, and you find yourself quite inspired at times.

How Creative Are You?

You Are 4% Girly

Um... you're a guy, right? If not, you're the most boyish girl in the world.And for you, that's probably the ultimate compliment.

How Girly Are You?

Yup, it's the best compliment in the whole wide world!

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Baan Laif And You Would Be: A Space Pirate

If You Were Born in 2893

This is weird...

Your IQ Is 105

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

Wow. I didn't know I suck that much.

table width=350 align=center border=0 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2>Your Inner Blood Type is Type B You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day.Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable.And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success.You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible.
You are most compatible with: B and AB
Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and

What's" Your Inner Blood Type?

Cool, cos' that's exactly what I am. B positive.=)

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

Amazing, but I prefer black, thank you.

Your 1920's Name is:

Bonita Freda

What's" Your 1920's Name?

My name's weird...

You Are 44% Perfectionist

No one would call you a perfectionist, but you definitely have a side of you that strives to be perfect.Try to see your mistakes as learning experiences, and don't be so hard on yourself when you screw up!

Are You a Perfectionist?

Cherrie should do this test, i fortell that she'll get 100%.

Your April Fool's Day Prank Should Be

Setting off stink bombs

What April Fool's Prank Should You Play?

Nice, but april is over. Long over.

Your Life Is Worth...

$1,008,000

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

My life is worth that much!?!

You Should Rule Mercury

Close to sun, Mercury has very long days - and is rarely visible to the rest of the solar system. You are perfect to rule Mercury, because you live for the present - and can truly enjoy a day that goes on forever.Like Mercury, you are quick and elusive. Your wit is outstanding, and you can win any verbal sparring match. Some people see you as superficial, but in truth, you just play many roles and have many interests.A great manipulator, you usually get what you want from people. And they're happy to give it to you.

What Planet Should You Rule?

Actually, I think of the long term future more, like what will happen 2 our band...

Your Aura is Red

You have a high level of emotion. This can mean passion, but it can also mean rage.Usually, you don't take these emotions out on others. You just use them as motivation - and it works! The purpose of your life: embracing all the wonders of the life, lots of travels, and tons of adventures Famous reds include: Madonna, Marilyn Monroe, Jennifer Lopez Careers for you to try: Dancer, Boxer, Surgeon

What Color Is Your Aura?

Yes! My fave colour is red! But sorry, actually i wanna b a singer. or a rapper.

You're Pretty Stupid

You got 4/10 questions right!It's probably time to get your head examined. You hardly know left from right.

Are'>http://www.blogthings.com/areyoustupidquiz/">Are You Stupid?

Cool.

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all menYou are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howrareisyourpersonalityquiz/">How Rare Is Your Personality?

I'm feeling? I'm amazed.

You Are 92% Pure

You're so innocent, it's almost like you're not human.Taking this test is probably the naughtiest thing you've done in a while!

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howpureareyouquiz/">How Pure Are You?

Har har. It's just that i dun do anything extreme.

You Should Be a Musician

You have a rare combinations of talents: an ear for music, nimble fingers, and the willpower to practice.You could master almost any instrument you choose to play (if you haven't already!)

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatsortofartistshouldyoubequiz/">What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

Cool, band members, try this one out!

You Are a Little Messy

You aren't the cleanest person in the world, but you're definitely not a slob.You clean up when you have the time, but you're realistic about what you can get done.Generally, you're pretty organized and tidy - though you may have a few hidden messes.You eventually get around to making things spotless, but you do it on your own schedule!

Are'>http://www.blogthings.com/areyoumessyquiz/">Are You Messy?

See? Mummy? I'm not THAT messy.

You Are 56% Shy

Although you live a pretty normal life, you tend to be a fairly shy person.Many situations make you feel uncomfortable, and you sometimes find your shyness hindering your life.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howshyareyouquiz/">How Shy Are You?

I'm SHY!?!

You Are 95% Pure

You're so pure ... you make a nun look like a whore!There's a lot of life's dark side left for you to experience... if you want to.

The'>http://www.blogthings.com/the100questionpuritytest/">The 100 Question Purity Test

I'm pure, i'm pure, oh i'm so pure. =D

i'm NUMB FOREVA

If you're crazy over 'Welcome to the Black Parade' by My Chemical Romance, welcome to this blog! You can listen to the song all you want, this blog is called: The-Blog-With-Unlimited-Time-Of-Listening-To-The-Same-Song-Until-You-Get-Tired-Of-The-Song!

Well, if you've been comin 2 my blog often, there's nothing much for the past few days...

Anyway, my new e-mail is 'numb_foreva@yahoo.com.sg' any queries? My 'rachelle2nd@yahoo.com.sg' is flooded with junk mail. But u can still send 2 the old mail...jus dun send 2 my hotmail account can already. =D

Yesterday, I went 2 downtown, 2 stay @ the resorts. *sigh* I made my mother angry and then, poof, she disappeared off 4 like 2 hours. xP then i said srry, then we went for lunch 2gether. We came back @ around 13:05 2day. 2day escape was fun, except 4 the rain, it was darned cold. and guess wat? escape played 'One Step Closer' and 'Points of Authority' (by Linkin Park, that's y i'm so excited)! Whoo hoo! it was so cool! i mean, like such a big theme park and of all the songs, they chose these songs!

For the details, please contact Rachelle Lee at: numb_foreva@yahoo.com.sg. But I hope you won't.

I've broken the bridge
That I've built in a hurry
I've tried to do this
I did them in a flurry
Why kick up such a big fuss
When you've got all day
If not, there's still
The day after today

Also known as tomorrow
If you need to help
With understanding
All that kelp
You'd do anything,
To poke your nose
Into other's business
The fairy would turn it to a hose

:::::::Idiot=):::::::
Go blow those mines
But ya got no control
Over the controls
So you went to Metro
To do some shopping
You picked up a doll
On the counter
You threw from the top floor

You got caught
You got sent to the police station
The police man said,
"You want do that go play station.
We got no time for you,
Or people like you,
Who wast our time,
Go find some dog poo."

Ahh, I didn't mean 2 be rude. I just needed 2 find something that rhymes, i'm better @ doing angst stuff. i cannot do humor. XP

Seriously, i think i'll rather be numb foreva than see YT again@ the end of the hols. Brrrrrrr.

Minutes to Maths (Minutes to Midnight:Linkin Parks 3rd album) =)

I'm so bored...

Look deep inside,
I'll never confide,
Anything in you,
And all my blues,
I've kept them in,
With no trash bin,
In sight or in the area,
Only friends and teachers.

My little beanie toy,
Looks so much like a boy,
With little or no hair,
That's why he's so bare.
He's here sitting on my lap,
While I'm creating this rap,
This is so cool,
Well, at least with no drool.

I'm bored out of my wits,
When the little beanie tweets,
I'm doing this at school,
I wish I were at the pool.
I've managed not to sleep,
But I wanna get on a jeep,
And go home, home, home,
To my dome, dome, dome.

Mr. Grosse, sucks, along with life.*Sigh*

What did I do?
To deserve this goo?
That stuck me to the ground,
And I am forever bound.
What's up with Mr. Grosse?
Why does he think he's the boss?
Do we really think we are superior?
Does he really care about our interior?

'You don't know what's an average,
Primary 4's knowledge.
Cos' you're in the GE,
Where everything's so easy'
Quoting from Mr. Grosse's speech.
What else does he teach?
Other than hate and breach?
And my marks are too low even to reach.

Come, come, come,
Mr. Grosse, come and become,
That idiotic idiot,
Who reminds me of a maggot.
Everyone's got flaws,
And so the line draws,
Separating us from you,
Or that's what you feel.

Come people, come gather round,
To see him make a fool of us, the clowns.
To make life a living hell,
To ring us in a bell,
To stuff us up a rabbit hole,
(Or is it down into the mole's?)
What ever it is,
There is meant to be no bliss.

Even though Sean Seet got the bulk,
I still feel like Mr. Grosse is a hulk,
That was created to destroy hopes,
All aspirations and gropes.
Since when did he care?
For all our best of welfare?
And he goes on about some guy called Kenneth,
That covers us like a hearth.

What the heck was done,
Can never be all the less fun.
What will be will be,
If I hate, leave it be.
God has given us a choice,
To bring out your voice,
In the old creaky house,
That was inhabited with mouse.

Like a fly,
Mr. Grosse can't cry,
Unlike a lullaby,
Mr. Grosse will pry,
Not to open to sleep,
It's to open to skip,
The important lessons of life,
That we would overlook in a glint of a knife.

You were my saviour then in P5,
Now you are an attacking hive.
I've seen the true you,
This time I know it's true,
What you've sent me through body-language mail,
This time I know it's real,
My life is at stake,
This time it's not fake.

What the heck, y do I get stuck making rhymes? Have I got nothing better 2 do? I know my rhymes suck, but I want u'r honest feedback, is it nice? (Just pretend it's about someone you hate, ok?)

[School]
Bfor sch started, I gave Cass something that frm the back ppl will call it a banana. =)

*Sigh* I had 2 go 2 sch early 2day. Not fun, trust me, getting stuck @ the back of the HCL class, but when AY came, things brightened up! We made a few more songs, we edited the songs, we decorated the cover pg, those were pretty fun! Anyway, Hu Lao Shi scolded Sean Seet, but not as loud as expected, Winifred even told me to cover my ears, o well, I forgot, but it was not as loud as expected. O, did I coda it? =)

Maths-It sucks. Just as much as English. =P Did another practice paper AGAIN. Did until question 42 and part of question 48. *Sigh* I wanted 2 finish the paper so badly.

Break-It was darn fun. We played cheat on Cassy's cards and I ate a Hot Dog croscent curtesy of AY and lots of Begawan Solo's Pandan Cake curtesy of Mrs. Teo.

English-It sucks. Just as much as Maths. =P M. G spent most of the time scolding us about being insensitive. As if we dunno how ppl feel. If u see a handicapped begger on the street and not have a pang in u'r heart, now that is called supremem insensitive. Last time I saw a streetside musician and he looked so helpless that I had to beg my mum for money to give him. Then another time I took $2 out of my own savings just 2 give another streetside musician money, call me insensitive. I just dun wan anybody to noe I'm sensitive. O, but well, it's out. I feel like I from that day I saw that handicapped streetside musician I want 2 save a $ a day so I can give the money 2 any streetside musicians I see.

I think we r still more pitiful than the mainstream ppl. They tease us like xiao. It's not fair. I'm the lowest in the GE standard and everybody noes that, and I dun boast that I'm in the GE (partially cos' I got so low). I'm dumb, dumb like xiao, dumb like and idiot, a freak, a stupid person... y can't I just b a normal person? No GE, average grades instead of everything below average...

[JC]
It was pretty fun. We played indoor games, but bfor we play, we need 2 count the number of pieces in the game so that we make sure nothing is missing. I was sniggering at the thought of that stupid BattleShip game where each of us had 'bout 2 count 200 counters each! Wow, we took more than 5 minutes just 2 count those 400 odd counters. That game's nice, but the counting if the counters suck.

YOU'VE become so numb.

.:Junk:.

This is getting too freaky,
I'm getting too busy,
Yet I find time,
To make this stupid rhyme.
I'm stuck doing this,
You left me in the midst,
Of creating this junk,
When I know I'll flunk.

Little did I know,
You had surprises in tow,
Something about assessments,
And tiring out my arms.
I'm surprised you don't think,
That I'm a dot of hopeless ink,
And I'm not surprised you left me,
And sold me for free.

I'm not your servant,
I'm not going to patent,
Our stupid relationship,
Tied with a whip.
I walk along a deserted beach,
Trying to get rid of the itch,
To get back at you,
When you are weakened by the flu.

I look down at the floor,
I bend down to explore,
That little note you left,
The day you committed a theft.
The room disappears,
When I remember the shed tears,
That once belonged to me,
Before you became my enemy.

Now you care only about yourself,
What have you done to the shelf,
That contained books of sentimental values,
Your talents misused.
If you could see your current look,
In a personality reflection book,
You'll find out that you aren't the same,
Once you've signed the claim.

All I ask,
Is for you to take off the mask,
That made you look strong,
Even stronger than the throng.
You've made a big mistake,
Hiding behind all this fake,
These things that caved in,
Belong to the bin.

Come back before hate bubbles,
Rising high above the troubles,
Not unlike a rose,
That is too cold in the snows,
Reminising about the past,
And all the happy times that didn't last,
This is all a big difference,
From what was my preference.

You should not have metamorphosised,
You should have stayed as prophesised.
I miss the original,
I hate the renewal.
You've been through a lot,
That's why you are what you got.
You've changed,
I know that.

We know that.

Wow. This is my longest rhyme ever, maybe I should change it into a song, what do ya think? It would be really nice, you know, having a song based on YT. Darn, now I hate her so much, I miss what she was like last time, when she was more studious, instead of being what she isn't. Sigh. We lost the SYSF, really sad...

Y do u have 2 make me so constipated?

yes, constipation, I'm lucky I haven't gotten it once. =) U wish. But anyway, i'm not here 2 sour u with my REDUNDANT boring world. Anyway, if u read this, u r reading out of u'r own acord, so dun blame me.

anyway, mr. gross(e) decided to pick on me even more. wat the (deeee) (mrs. koh said we had 2 do it, rite? dun wrry, i not saying 'f' word, i thought of 'heck'). so i noticed nick was mimmicking mr. grosse(e) behind his back. seriously, he looked pretty hilarious. :D ok. so mr grosse didn't actually specify it was me, but i could tell, i'm always the one he hates and always the victim of his wateva tormenting. n i hate it. y me? y not Winifred (fine, wini is a really SMART gal. according 2 1 of the teachers, she is a GEM. gaffaws. i mean, take a look @ her true self. she doesn't resemble a gem @ all. k, winifred is not a name from winnie the pooh. some ppl will noe who she is. yesterday on the msn, cass told nick:

Cass: if you say shut up to winnie, I'll love the whole world

Nick: Okay, I'll tell her 2 shut up 2morrow.

Cass: Thx

of course, i dunno how the conversation went but it went something like that. guess wat. he stuck 2 his promise. yay! we all hate winnie!

so, mr grosse's holiday plan didn't seem 2 bad.

8 am-breakfast
9 am-english
12 noon-lunch
1 pm-science
4 pm-tea
5 pm-maths
8 pm-dinner
9 pm-chinese (ha, no energy already lah, still study the most hated subject)
11 pm- sleep (drop dead, more like, just go kill u'rself. much more benificial [2 mr. grosse, @ least])

so mr grosse thinks he owns the world. well, more like he owns the world of discrimination.
M v M - I versus him
M v H - He versus himself: whether to embarrass me or not (obviously the latter lost)
M v E - Surrounded by a herd of children
M v S - Now the wole world hates him (not literally, just say that my hate is strong)

yeah mr grosse, i learnt a lot in your lessons. That's right. i used u'r methods against u, how do u like that? a lot? i wish.

Bad Day

Sing a sad song just to turn it around...
Say you don't know
Tell me don't lie
You work out a smile
And you go for a ride

I feel like singing a sad song (except that I hardly know any, what about NUMB? Is it a sad song?). It's true, I always say I don't know, and I really don't know. I tell people not to lie, but who am I to do it? Seriously. I can lie too. Well, yeah, sometimes I smile when I don't feel like smiling, and I brace myself for the roller-coaster ride of the day. I like quoting parts from 'Bad Day', though I hardly even know the song, and even the artiste. =)
How can I like a song when I don't even know the artiste? Nvm, next time I'll quote from Linkin Park, My Chemical Romance or Weird Al Yankovic songs then. =) "I used, pink bathrobes"-Weird Al Yankovic's Ebay.=) Seriously, if you have time go listen to some of Weird Al Yankovic's songs. All plain humor. I like the "Complicated Song", though that tune was taken from Avril Lavigne's (Arghh, I hate that Artiste) song, but the lyrics are darn nice.
Yeah, some people must be wondering that I am so free, can type so much in one post and still type the same amount the next day. Well, I tell you what, I LOVE BLOGGING! Happy now? Satisfied? Contented? At rest? Well, I think so (NOT!).

"I'm tired of being what you want me to be"

That should be familiar to those who have been to my blog before and heard the previous music of my blog. From NUMB, first line of the song. That song totally rocks!=) And it totally fits my life. I hate sticking to one routine and never changing it. My life is so strict. Like a hyku (aw man. I completely forgot how to spell that word, HELP WANTED). Save me from the jail I was so unjustly put in. Help me escape the prison-the only place I saw in my life-to see the world. SET ME FREE. Just do it. You won't regret it. It's your choice, be the hero, or 袖手旁观. You'd better not choose the latter. I've got a long life ahead of me. Don't rip my hopes, dreams, aspirations to shreds. Don't leave me alone in this bleak and lonely world. Dark, grey-colourless.

Finally!

There are 3 finally's I meant in the title.

1)FINALLY blogger has solved its 1-500 problem. Thank heavens! And I can finally post things.

2)FINALLY I have gotten the guts to make a band! Thanks to Linkin Park (and my band members, of course) for making it all possible! Without listening to them at all, I would NOT have the inspiration to form a band of my own with different genres in each song. Darn. I LOVE LINKIN PARK! LINKIN PARK ROCKS! LINKIN PARK YOU RULE THE WORLD OF MUSIC! The band is called Suffocation Squared. I made a blog for my band, you can visit it. The link is below (as in in the Links section on the right side of the screen). Wow. And I cannot believe that everybody who heard the Sea-Cream song said that it was wonderful. Personally, I think it's a little nonsensical, but it's funny, no doubt.

3)FINALLY Linkin Park's 3rd album is out. How nice! The only problem is that there is an 'F' word loud but not-so-clear (as Chester was shouting). Aww man. He totally ruined that song, I tell you. It had been so nice at first. Anyway, he was a gangster kind of person. He had a lip ring, earrings and PERMANANT tatoos on his arms and legs. Well my bro also said that he had a belly ring. I DON'T want to find out if that is true or not. But anyway, he sings (or rather shouts) pop-metal songs quite nicely.

When my bro told me that there would be 'F' word in that 3rd album, I had thought that it would have been Mike Shinoda who said the 'F' word. Well, he did say (well, rap, actually) the 'F' word quite a number of times when doing his side project Ford Minor. The songs in there were like crazy. The content is nice. I'll rate it 6/6, but the language I'll only rate it 5/9. 'F' word was loud and clear in one song, just like my sis when she said it. *Sigh*

Woohoo! 1.6 km run is over for good! Seriously! I've broken my own personal record! 8 min 15 sec compared to last year's 9 min plus. I so rawk this year! Band and all! Plus, my English improved my 9 marks since last year's SA2!

Anyway, I've changed my blog music to In The End by (still) Linkin Park.=) If not clear, please go http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdIaPYW98-A to check out the video and have a better sound quality. Thank you.

(under)stand others

How do you like my new picture? I created it myself! Actually, just cut some part of a picture from the web, then enter some 'meaningful' (meaningful in ' ' cos I'm not sure whether you would agree to it) words, then that's it. =)

I like making crap titles so ignore them.

2day my parents made us (my elder bro and my foul mouth sis and me) stay @ home, miss church and do assessment books. Very thoughtful of them, very thoughtful.
But anyway, I managed to complete 1 English revision paper, 1 Science revision paper and 1 Maths revision paper. Way 2 go! Well, not really, I couldn't resist the temptation to play a few Linkin Park songs VERY LOUDLY while I did my assessment books.

So anyway, my sis read my diary again when I was sleeping. Guess what? I haven't updated it, yet. =) Last update was 18 April. =)

We had a very VERY filling lunch, and dinner. Both very nice. 'u' <--Ain't it a cutee?

I hurt myself 3 times, at the corner of a metal table. OUCH OUCH OUCH. But other than that, nothing much.

So anyway, this must be the shortest post eva on my blog in May. =P

In the end =)

I SELF LEARNED HOW 2 PLAY 'CANNON IN D'!
To some people like ZB, that might not be such a great thing, but 4 a person who got only 101/150 for her Grade 3 piano practical (that took place on 7 March) THAT is a big thing. =) Go me! =P

But anyway, I feel that I rawk so much! Yoohoo! Aunty Life is giving me sweet treats 2day!

Anyway, I would like 2 noe the secret of doing up u'r hair using chopsticks. I think I would rather use that method to do up my hair than actually tying it up using a rubberband at home. Save so much time. =) I just saw in a youtube video someone doing up her hair using chopsitcks and I was just curious 2 noe the technic (sp?). But I'm not having much luck at trying to find out. =). It's hopeless.

Hang on a moment, actually, I'm the hopeless one.=)

Usually I have downright long stuff to write bout, but 2day was just well, not that interesting. Oh well, unless YOU call having your pest of an 'f' word saying sister reading your personal diary interesting. Ahh well, you can't expect anything much from her would u, afterall, she's not very nice. Diaries r meant 2 b secret.
Ahh yes, u would find it interesting 2 noe that she finished reading it just as I got up from bed. I should not have stayed in the bed 4 another half an hour after I woke up, then I could catch her. Bad luck just seems 2 follow (me). Well, stay away from me then. =)

I called this post 'in the end' b'cos I'm writing all this at the end of the day, but I like a song 'In the End' thus the name.

Rachelle Meltdown I

Yoo hoo! 2day got badminton! Tell you bout it later.

I was happy about lots of things 2day. Those who are not happy 2day, wish you happiness 2morrow! Those who are happy 2day, wish you happiness 4 the rest of your life!
*1st happy thing*
When we had our English compo 2day, I found out that the compo was not that difficult! High 5 (I'm not cheering on that bread brand)! Situational was xP; like I wanted to die like that, so difficult. But at least it's over.
*2nd happy thing* Lots to tok bout
Just after recess, Mrs Teo called all the SYSF (Singapore Youth Science Festival) drama people to go to Eureka. I moved over next door, and had to go back to PIE to get AY (An Yan). Her (Mrs. Teo) face expression was unreadable; nonchalant (sp? I learnt a new word, ya noe?), it looked almost sad. THEN she said, " I got the results already. The thing is-" at this point I was about to burst, phew, what a cliffhanger. She looked so SAD (I dunno y. We won, didn't we? or is it that she wanted to be a red herring?) "we got in." And then every single person in the SYSF group jumped, high fived and screamed (that's what I almost did) with joy. We whooped. We stamped. We laughed. Overall, we got emo. Anyone outside would have though that Mrs. Teo had brought in a herd of rhinos rather than a group of students. AY and I tried to high 5, but the hands missed, o well. The competition day is 26th May, so we (I say WE because, I thought that some boys would have wanted to go *smirk* some people like Chuen Yen or Bo Wei, remember Mo Mo?) will have to miss the RGS opening house, not that I minded. I hated that school. Too studious. I pity those who didn't get to share our joy: those who didn't get in and those who did not join the SYSF group. *Sigh* what happiness it was. =)
After that I went to the GIRLS toilet to SMS my parents.=) I broke the school rule! I brought a hp! The rebelliant side of me is showing up slowly but surely!
*3rd happy thing*
Whoops! I got 76.4 something percent for my Chinese practice paper! Woohoo! I haven't gotten an A for Chinese this year, not once! YAY!=D
*4th happy thing*
Chinese lesson was HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! Instead of hearing the usual drone of our teacher, laughter ruled and took over our conscience (sp?). What a happy lesson, very unexpected happy lesson.=)
*5th happy thing* I've LOTS to tok bout this happy thing.
THERE WAS BADMINTON 2DAY! Okay, so badminton wasn't usually a very happy thing, but we (containing me, ZB, Nick, Norman, Keith, Sean Seet (not used to calling him just 'Sean'), Han Sheng and Jek Kee) spiced it up with a dash of laughter, and...(drumroll, pls)
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a sissy dance, curtesy of MISS Nicholas (or is it Nicole?) Neo Hao Yang.=D
Haha! I'm gonna be in hot soup, hot stew, hot macaroni, hot chemical, hot bubbling mess wadeva when I get to school if Nicholas sees this.x)
As the umpire (or so what a certain GM has dubbed me and it stuck), I shouted a lot. ZB and Nick (nice ring 2 the names, don't ya think?) did only a little and they started complaining of sore throat. *Sigh* Maybe I'm born to shout.=) But anyway, it started with a winner-stay-loser-get-out-and-someone-replace-loser game (ain't it a nice name?). So when someone wins, I raise my arm that represents him (ZB and I not playing) and shake it, vigorously, shouting, "Ling ling ling! Winner is so-and-so. (loser's name) 下场, (next person's name) 上场. And it goes on and on. Until we played a full game (I didn't play at all, no racket. But I like staying back. Can avoid (teacher) Pat): Nick, Norman (N&N, used in later part of post) and Han Sheng vs. Sean Seet, Keith and Jek Kee. Zi Bing had bet 1 cent that Nicholas' group win, but they lost. And we've added a new 'phrase' to out winner and loser thingy: bom peep peep (or was it 'beep beep bor bor'? those present can you pls help me remember? I only remembered Nicholas looking like a monkey (actaully a chimpanzee, I was just being polite) trying to hint to me to say that phrase)!
The next game, ZB and I made a deal with N&N (seeing that Han Sheng had gone off to play with Liang Ping) that if they lose, they buy us a drink. =) We tried to get them to lose, but they had a good headstart and well, you can guess the rest, they won. Bye bye drink... =( Y can't those stupid boys (wait, correction, sissies) just listen to us and do what we want them 2 do 4 once?
Just sad that it is the last badminton CCA that we are attending this year. Very saddened.=(
*6th happy thing*
Yay! Got a bag of potato chips to eat (but must share with my foul mouthed 'f' word saying younger sister. Sigh).=P
*7th happy thing*
Yay agin! Got egg tarts to eat 4 t-break at JC (for reference, refer to past posts).=)

No more happy things. *Sigh*.

Sad thing 1: Got lowest in Chinese class for the practice paper even if I did get 76.4 somthing percent.
VERY sad thing 1: Spoilt my hp. *sigh* I only ACCIDENTALLY dropped it on the floor from about a metre up and it spoilt! boohoo!

But overall, Aunty Life is treating me very good. And don't forget Uncle God too!

School (bad day)

BIASNESS ON ON FULL BLAST AGAIN! =p

Arghh! I hate Mr. Grosse. >(

He's angry, he starts pointing out the bad points of people, take me for example (fine, there's no example, cos' I'm the only one he picked on).
I have so kindly created a line graph to explain and show people what he meant:

Graph curtesy of Rachelle Lee

After school, he called me to his desk (when everyone had magically disappeared so suddenly when I need them) and told me (once more) that I have the potential to do well. I already know that, it's just that I don't want to use them.

"You can picture and visualise things very well, the question is whether you can put them into words, but words cannot say everything"

Mr. Grosse (trying to act smart)

When he asked me if I know what my 'talents' are, he started in a what he supposedly meant to be a nice and caring tone that I am very frank (and I hate that tone, he always had and always will have this thought that I am not good, not good enought to be in his class. I personally believe that I wanted to be in another class, now that I've seen the REAL him, always finding time to bring down the way I look at myself, tell you what, Mr. Gross, it's not working).

"Many people might see your frankness as a bad thing (well, so does he), but I have seen many people like you during my career so I can tolerate it"

Mr. Grosse (trying to act smart again)

So if he said that he could TOLERATE it , it meant that being frank is a bad thing. But I am frank, so what? So when I could not stand it any more, I told a fib: Mr. Gross, I'm not staying back. I need to get to my before and after school care fast, if not I might miss lunch. And that made him let me off!!! Yippee!=D

So, tomorrow have English Compo and I hope to do really badly just to piss off Mr, Grosse, but I want to get good grades for my parents, so if I get good grades, it's NOT because of Mr. Grosse's 'teachings', if I get bad grades, it's BECAUSE of Mr. Grosse's teachings.=)

(Negative) got TING XIE

No 听写!!!

Yay, yay!!!

No 听写, no 听写, no 听写, no 听写, no 听写, no 听写, no 听写, no 听写, no 听写 TOMORROW!!!

*LIFE CAN'T GET ANY BETTER THAN THIS! WOOHOO!* =)
The bad thing is, it can get worse, for example the upcoming Chinese compo exam tomorrow...
*SIGH*

I think I'm gonna fail my compo test...

But anyway, I'm not here to bore you with my REDUNDANT sour faces and bitter expressions formed by my wonderful face muscles (you can do it too, you know?).

I just wanna say...
MY FREAKIN' YOUNGER SISTER BORN ON 8TH NOVEMBER 1996 SAID THE FREAKIN' AND HORRIBLE 'F' WORD!!! *SHOCK* And Cass said my sister rawks, I don't think so... I've never thought so. =D How could you Cass!

So anyway, today I completely ignored teacher Pat in JC (Joy Connection, the name of my before and after school care, but only, it's not joyful...). YAY!!! When life hands you lemons, you know what to do!!! Sure I do. I just needed to stand up for myself.

[School]
Life handed me loads of lemons, especially loads of Science corrections. Brrr. Those pieces of materials made up of trees made me miserable as I had to do corrections AND it wastes trees... sigh, poor trees. The aim of our school's SYSF (Singapore Youth Science Festival) group from the GEP is to save trees, and the teacher in charge is Mrs. Teo. Then, may I ask (in a American accent), does she waste so much paper for homework??? =)

Guess what? Today we saw Gay-sha/Jaya walk past our classroom! Or at least, Cass, me, YT, ZB, Nicholas, Alex, Darren, Samuel, Shawn (the rest of Shawn's group I cannot guarantee that they saw him).

[JC]
Ignored teacher Pat completely. Yay! Nothing very eventful then...

[Home]
Internet was DOWN! I could not get to the net. Then, by magic, tadaa! Got internet. Sigh, internet connection is another unpredictable thing besides life. Sigh.

"When life hands you lemons, react as if it were a challange to test your internal strength (ability to stand up for yourself)."
-Rachelle Lee (ME!)

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& is a cool title. Well. It's actually adapted from my brother's blog. But, who cares?

This is a really cool EVIL test... Take it if you have 'a lot' of time, like me!
I am 24% Evil. If so, then I'm 76% PURE!!! I thought I wasn't even 1% pure... that's something to ponder about...

You Are 24% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

Yay! I've finished all my homework!!! Except for the one that I'm planning to ask ZB tomorrow.

[Dinner]

It was an ultra quiet affair. And I mean ultra ULTRA quiet. Only 3 people were present when we had dinner.
Mother was away doing FACIAL TREATMENT (wonder y she needs to go for facial, I wouldn't mind having a blackhead-full face when I'm 44... =])
Brother was upstairs (btw, I live in a terrace) sleeping.
What's more, one of them, my sister, is on the sofa watching TV and NOT eating. I'm amazed, and here's why: I thought she could not resist food at all! =D
So it was only 2 people dinner. Me n' my father. Guess what we had for dinner?
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~Apples x)
~Pears x)
~Grapes x)

ANYBODY WHO CAN'T STAND BIASNESS PLS GET OUT HERE. THERE IS BIASNESS ON FULL BLAST FROM HERE ONWARDS TO THE END...


I'm sooooooo glad that ZB agreed to use my music lyrics for the GEP song no matter even if YT's one is nicer! =)
Go me! (I'm jumping up and down in my seat! Dun worry, it's not practical, I'm not a bull in a china shop, [SEE? MR GROSSE! I LEARNT SOMETHING EVEN WHEN I'M DOODLING!!!)

AND through Cass I found out that ZB is CHANGING the part YT MADE!!! =)
YAY ME GO ME!
Now I am worth existing.
I was pondering about my measly existance on this world just b4 Cassy kia called.

This is the first time edited part (by me) of YT's lyrics for the Tong Hua's tune, ZB will edit later:
Graduatng now
I never cherished
Any of these
Wonderfui moments
And now I'm trying
Very hard to keep
All these memories
I've knowv for so long...

Methinks (and Cass thinks and ZB thinks [Yeah, she's not our best friend nor good friend anymore. She just scraped as non-enemy person in my 'friends' list.]) YT was thinking about a certain BOY in class (If he is reading, he will know, I told him she likes him already, and I'm so proud of that. It's the same boy I mentioned 2 posts before) while she was writing the GEP song.
It was DOWNRIGHT ROMANTIC.
It was not a farewell song to friends.
It was a LOVE SONG to the person she likes, that's why we had to change it.
It was FAR TOO MUSHY.=P
It was SICK. =P
OVERALL, IT STINKS AS BAD AS...umm...garbage? (Even my garbage smells better than her song)

'Happy' Labour's Day

Today is SO not a happy day. Soooooooo much homework.


YOU would think the teachers had nothing better to do than to mark ws.


[Accomplished]

~1 Chinese Compo x)

~2 Full Chinese revision papers (minus one Compre) x)

~1 Science revision paper x)

~1 Full English revision paper (minus 5 questions) x)

~All the Science Ws (minus 3 questions) x)


That's almost all the homework =}


[UNaccomplished]

~1 Chinese Compre (Going to do finish 2day) :<(

~5 Questions from the English revision paper (Try to do finish 2day)

~3 Questions from Science Ws (plan to ask ZB how to do...) =)


[Lunch]

Had white carrot cake


[Accomplished for the blog]
~Added a tagbox =D

My life is soooooooooooooooo unpredictable.

What are you like?

I'm bored out of life itself

I want to know what everybody is like

But what if they have no inferiors?

LIKE ME?