Friday 30 July 2010

Throwing Light

(This post is around one and a half months late. I did write it earlier on the 30th but the internet got cut off so I kind of forgot about it...until now.)

*YELLS*

*SCREAMS*

*YELLS SOME MORE*

*SINGS GAILY*

*PRANCES ABOUT*

*YELLS AGAIN*

*SCREAMS*

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*takes deep breath of air*

MY FATHER GOT ME A TABLET! OH! THIS IS WONDERFUL!

*sings and prances off*

-brief moment of absolute silence-

*comes back with silly deranged smile on face, but much saner than earlier*

It was actually rather anti-climatic, the way my mother told me, but whatever. I GOT A TABLET~!

...which I can technically only start using after I pass my piano exam. Oh horror.

Ah well, one more motivation to actually try an pass the exam. Oh, wait, it's actually the only reason I'm trying to pass the exam. I'm not exactly sure if you can count "I don't want to do another exam because my mother will make me retake it if I fail" as a reason...

Anyway, it was a rather unusual day today. The morning was rather cold, and so was the rest of the day because the rain just wouldn't stop. I know I love the rain and the cold weather it brings, but seriously, this is getting kind of extreme. On the really hot days I feel like melting, and on the colder days I just want to shrivel (yes, shrivel) up in my nice, thick comforter and snore the day away.

I am really sensitive to the cold, see. Well, I technically am just sensitive to temperature. Period. I can function within a very small range of temperature, anything other than that I tend to kind of go haywire, if you get what I mean, not that I'm functioning very well at my optimum anyway.

Because of the seriously freakish cold weather today, my jacket became my best friend of the day. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'D DO WITHOUT THAT RELIABLE MAROON THING BY MY SIDE.

Yup.

So I went home, debating about seedlings and whether the term is of any use at all with ShuYing on the way home on bus 105. Needless to say, the conversation got cut short rather abruptly when ShuYing had to alight to transfer to the MRT. I spent the rest of the bus ride in relative silence, but there were these people sitting in the row behind me talking about...something.

I first gained an interest in the conversation when a male voice asked the person next to him, "So was RGS your first choice?" I was all...'WHAT IS AN RGS GIRL DOING WITH A MAN???'

Yeah, and then the conversation continued, and I found out the man had gone through NS, and I was rapidly going through possibilities of the relationship between the two. 1) Counsellor. 2) Boyfriend. 3) Stalker. 4) Friends who met on the bus. etc. etc.

Yup. In the end the conversation led to me figuring out that the man was a teacher at RGS and it kind of made me wonder, 'Is this some sort of forbidden teacher/student relationship?' Yes, I know I've been reading too much manga. So sue me.

I'm not really sure what their exact relationship was (so I settled for a normal teacher/student relationship who just so happened to be taking the same bus) and also kind of figured out that the student was giving directions to the teacher, because when she alighted (2 stops before mine) she told him that Lorong Chuan should be 1 or 2 stops away.

Before I alighted the teacher asked me if the stop I was alighting at was near Lorong Chuan (I was in the midst of getting off my seat, see, so he noticed), then I kind of froze for a moment and then spoke really awkwardly an affirmation. I hate talking to guys. D< I'm not sure what he was going to do at Lorong Chuan, though. All I know is that if I were the student he was conversing with earlier, I'd have decided to take the next bus instead after giving him directions...

So yeah. My tuition teacher arrived at around 15:30, and we had our tuition until 17:30. 2 hours long, and also quite boring, but we started talking about movies towards the end (the conversation began with me telling the teacher that was watched 'Ip Man' at school today) so yes, the tuition did end on a high note...well, kind of.

I made rice at about 18:38, and then continued using my computer. I bathed at around 21:05 because I was reading something online and didn't want to be cut off in the middle. It was rather weird though since neither my parents nor my siblings have returned home even though it's already so late. I entertained thoughts of them getting caught up in a road accident but brushed it aside quickly. I don’t want them to die so early…

I went down for dinner after my shower, during which my mother returned home and asked me why I hadn't eaten yet. Look who's talking (...yes, I do know she has work so she can't eat, shut it). I replied by saying I'd eat once I finish showering, and true to my word, I did eat after showering.

I went back up after dinner at about 21:45 and continued using the computer (you can see how much I LOVE my computer...). My father came back with my sister and brother during this time, and nothing much happened.

Then, at around 22:40, my mother suddenly raised her voice and said to me from the first floor (I was on the third) about how my father got a tablet or something. My first reaction was 'you're kidding, right?' because I'm pretty sure they said they wouldn't get me one until I had finished my piano exam.

My next reaction was 'OMG, if this is real, I really want to see it'. At that time I was still reading something online, but then all thoughts fled and all I could think of was 'if this isn't real, someone just wake me up from this beautiful dream, hopefully I'll really find a tablet when I wake up'. So I pranced all the way downstairs with anticipation (and bracing myself for disappointment, because I know my mother is capable of deception when she wants to…).

I saw my mother, who didn't look like she was joking at all and I asked her where the tablet was. She just pointed to the bunch of bags at the side and I rushed over to them. I spotted this big box inside one of the reusable bags and took it out, marvelling at the entire piece of equipment (okay, so maybe I wasn't admiring the equipment but what was supposed to be inside the box which was supposed to contain the equipment) and staring at it with wonderment and awe (see, Habit of Mind).

Everything felt so surreal, you know. Because I kind of resigned myself to begging for a tablet for Christmas and so totally didn't expect one to just appear right before me in the middle of the week out of freaking nowhere. I'm not sure why my father got the tablet today, or why he even got it in the first place, but for what it's worth, I'm entirely grateful, although the fact that the tablet came with really thick strings attached kind of scares me.

WHAT IF I FAIL MY PIANO EXAM? O.O

I believe I will kind of 'die' if I do. I mean, the tablet it just there. It's just THERE. I don't even have to source for it. My dad got it for me. For ME. Because I wanted it. This is so unbelievable. I would so totally be devastated if my piano results came back and told me I didn't pass. THE TABLET IS JUST RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME BUT I CAN'T TAKE IT AND USE IT.

Okay, yeah, I do know that I kind of decided that I wouldn't touch the tablet until all my exams (that means the EoYs too) are over because I'm pretty sure they'd be a great distraction to my studies. <--Look, I'm actually concerned about school for once...all hail me...

Yes, so even though I won't be touching the tablet until end of exams, I will still be disappointed if I fail my piano exam. That's because if I fail I'm gonna have to wait until I pass it, which would mean about at least another half a year of torturous piano lessons and going through another nerve-wrecking piano exam...

I DON'T WANT THAT.

If I had to do that, I'd rather wait till university (if I ever decide to pursue university education, that is) to get a tablet. I don't want to have a tablet dangle in front of me on a thin strand of thread but be unable to just grab it, only able to graze it. I don't want this kind of desire. It will probably drive me crazy.

And you know how much I love my sanity. (Oh, the irony...when was I ever sane?)

Monday 26 July 2010

Grey Sting of Metal

This is a this cat,
This is a is cat,
This is a how cat,
This is a to cat,
This is a keep cat,
This is a an cat,
This is a idiot cat,
This is a busy cat,
This is a for cat,
This is a 40 cat,
This is a seconds cat,
Now read every 4th word.

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Uh, yeah, I didn't mean to waste your time or anything, but I saw this and I just had to put it up somewhere. Just for the record, I am not an idiot, and I figured this out at 'This is a keep cat'. Yes, just so you know and don't use this against me. I found it hilarious, and I was completely GLAD that I figured it out before the last line...hopefully I'm not insulting anyone who couldn't figure it out, because I know just how easily I can unintentionally hurt someone with something I said in the passing.

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Yesterday I witnessed the glorious aftermath of a car accident. Of course, I wasn't involved in the crash at all, but it was the closest I've gotten to a real accident (other than the very, very soft bump against my familys car's back bumper). It made car accidents so much more real to me, since I've always thought they were something that happened, say, 20 miles from home.

One of the cars had its hood crushed beautifully. I don't think it'd work even after heavy servicing, but hey, with modern technology many things are possible. The other car, alas, was so much more unlucky. It was on its side with the back windshield smashed completely. I could see the underside of the car. The people whom I assumed were involved in the crash were circling the overturned car. I remember there was an old man (who looked quite spritely), a middle-aged man and a young boy. The old man was holding the boy, who didn't look traumatised at all, close.

I stared at the car until my father drove round a bend and behind a large expressway support pillar. I remember there was this policeman (quite young) with one leg propped up on the kerb standing over the shattered mess of glass. He looked kind of out of place.

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...oddly enough I saw Darren again yesterday at church, so that makes it before witnessing the accident. It was...odd. I was minding my own business in church during service when WHAM. The pastor said to a person sitting to the extreme right of the room, "Darren Lee, you're Darren Lee, right? Tell me, what do you do when you like a girl?"

I was all 'O.o'. 'ARE YOU FREAKING TELLING ME HE'S COMING TO SUNDAY SERVICE FOR GOOD???' *smacks face*

I really want to crawl into a corner, curl up and just emo for a few hours, but of course I didn't do that. I just felt like doing that for that one moment. I mean, I do forget things quite easily. I'm not quite sure why I wanted to emo. Maybe it's the prospect of facing some GUY I know? I fail at socialising. I fail at socialising with males more. I FAIL. *pulls long face*

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BREAKTHROUGH NEWS! URGENT NEWS! NEWS FLASH!:

Announcing that this dunce, this idiotic girl who cannot remember anything to save her life, has remembered when her Mathematics Unit Summary is due and has submitted it on time! This astounding piece of news is a phenomenon many scientists would never predict be possible, and even if it could be accomplished, would never be for it the possibility is so slim the prediction when it occurs exceeds her life expectancy. I repeat, THIS IDIOT HAS SUBMITTED HER UNIT SUMMARY ON TIME!

Whether or not she passes (with flying colours) is another thing altogether. It will be another miracle is she passes.

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I have recently gotten into Axis Powers Hetalia, a crack web manga which got published and turned into an anime. It was fantastic. I'm not really sure how to explain what it is, but the basic idea (and unique trait) is that it personifies each nation, so China is this 4000 year old immortal man who wears a red traditional garment and looks like a seme and an uke at the same time (when you view fan art, that is). America is this hamburger loving blond with glasses over his blue eyes and wears a bomber jacket. U.K. is a short blond with really, really thick eyebrows and is a complete tsundere. And there are many, many more countries. I think South Korea is just there for the lolz.

U.K. is my favourite character. I'm not really sure why, but maybe it's just because his really thick and fuzzy eyebrows make my own rather thick and fuzzy eyebrows feel not quite as thick and fuzzy as it really is. His tsundereness is just another plus point, as well as the fact that he can't cook. Oh, did I mention that he believes in fairies, unicorns and all sorts of magic? He can actually do magic, although...most of the time something goes wrong.

His relationship with Alfred (that is, America's human name) is really, really interesting. Arthur (U.K.'s human name) brought Alfred up, but Alfred ends up 'betraying' him to gain his independence, and in the process hurts Arthur terribly. Their relationship is much better now, although Arthur tends to show a lot of displeasure at whatever Alfred does, which I attribute to his tsundereness. Lol, you know you still love him, Arthur, don't deny it! I mean, how can anyone forget the affection they've nurtured towards someone whom they've brought up since young? Whatever kind of affection it is, that is.

Hetalia kind of makes History fun. For whoever who takes History, go read. It's interesting, you'll love it. Now everytime I see the words 'U.S.A.' or 'America', I keep thinking of Alfred, and it is kind of funny. Same goes for 'Italy' and 'Germany', and, of course, not to forget my favourite character, 'U.K.' or 'England' or 'Great Britain'. It makes life so much more fun, don't you agree? Now if only that could happen for elements...

YAY FOR IGGY!

...oh, Iggy is England's nickname. England in Japanese (as I assume from the subbed anime) is 'Igirisu', so the nickname 'Iggy' is derived from it. Really, England does have a lot of names, doesn't he. Let us count...

1) U.K.
2) United Kingdoms
3) The United Kingdoms of Great Britain and Northen Ireland (that technically counts as 2 countries...they've kind of merged or something)
4) England
5) Great Britain
6) Britain
7) Arthur Kirkland (England's human name in Hetalia as he requires an alias since he is human in physical form...)
8) Igirisu (England in Japanese, as I assume)
9) Iggy (England's nickname, derived from assumed Japanese name)
10) Igiko (England's fan name whenever he appears in his female form, which doesn't look like him at all due to the missing thick eye brows)

That makes 10...and I might still find more as I read more about it...

I am officially mad about Hetalia. And England. I like China too (Wang Yao). And Hong Kong. And America (Alfred F. Jones). And Austria (Roderich Edelstein). And Canada (Matthew Williams). Wait. I'm noticing a pattern. THEY'RE ALL MALE (even though I get super awkward around them, it apparently doesn't affect my manga preference...I draw a lot more guys than girls too...). Well, I don't really like Russia (Ivan Braginsky) though. I'm not sure why he's so popular...he's too weird. I mean, I know I like weird people but he...is weird in a way I don't like.

And I here end my rant on my life and Hetalia.

HETALIA!

(Yes, I know I lie, but doesn't everyone love liars? I think the world will be in much more pain if we don't lie diplomatically, or out of politeness.)

Monday 12 July 2010

TAG! You're 'It'.

MY TYPE OF (MANGA) GUY [or manga girl]

Which is to say, describes my preference for characters in mangas. No, seriously. I don't exactly go 'goo goo gaa gaa' about any character in particular, so these are just characteristics I'd like in the characters who do appear. Because if the characters are persistently annoying...I'll drop the manga and pick up another one.

AnYan tagged me on facebook, by the way, but I'm posting it here.

The 'quiz' (meme?) starts NOW.

Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in facebook to answer this. Then see what happens.

if you're a guy - post this as my kind of girl..
if you're a girl - post it as my kind of guy..

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?

Yes. As in, the manga kind of good looking. Any kind of good looking. If he looks too bad it turns me off as well. Mangas with horrible looking characters don't hold my attention for long because manga is all about the art, no?

If it's a girl, all the more. I get annoyed by girls much more easily than boys so, yeah.

2. Smart?

Yes. This is much preferred over brawns. Look, currently, even main characters of sports manga use their heads a lot.

Girls need to be smart. Or else they're going to appear really air-headed, and air-headed characters (especially females) can go drown in a pool of boiling acid.

3. Preferred age?

Late teens, I guess, although early 20s is fine too. They tend to be more interesting around this time of their lives. Too young = CHILDISH. Too old = TOO WISE (they don't make any mistakes, so it's not exactly very interesting).

4. Preferred height?

...165cm and taller. Short males are fine, as long as they fulfill most other criteria. I mean, it's not as if you can actually tell their relative heights to you in manga anyway...

Females have got to be 155cm and above if they're already in their teens. Short females are just crying out for me to disrespect them...

5. How about sense of humor?

Does not have to be present. It's perfectly alright for him to be unable to make jokes but as long as his attitude, reactions and behaviours are funny (whether he realises it or not) it will be

5. How about sense of humor?

Does not have to be present. It's perfectly alright for him to be unable to make jokes but as long as his attitude, reactions and behaviours are funny (whether he realises it or not) it will be satisfying.

I like female characters who are either sporty or serious, so go figure.

6. How about piercings?

Yes please! Only on the ears, though. Maybe exceptions in some places but definitely NOT on the tongue or any parts of the face. You can pierce as many holes as you want on his ears, so long as the lobe does not detach from the head. Of course, it depends entirely on his personality and status...

Females...I'd say it doesn't really matter. I mean, if I said yes, I'd be hating myself, which I don't exactly. Earrings for the more glamorous ones, sporty ones don't need to have them.

7. Accepts you for who you are?

Breaking the fourth wall much?

8. Pink hair?

...possibly. =) Wacky is good, too, although pink does fit Euphemia quite a lot even if she's not strange in that many ways.

9. Mushy or no?

Uh...maybe? Well it completely depends on their characters. I like the two extremes as well as the tsundere kind of characters. They're interesting to play around with.

(Tsundere: Used to describe a person who does not show his/her affection openly and expresses feelings like dislike instead, doesn’t want to show his/her soft side, wants to appear strong)

10. Thin or fat?

Thin. Not anorexic, of course, but Lelouch is acceptable because all the characters in Code Geass are stick thin anyway. I guess he is rather normal by Code Geass universe standards. Females have got to not have too much body fat.

11. Skin colour?

Exotic is good (dark skin + super pale hair!). Of course, pale is fine too. Yellowish Asian skin should be the best, though, since it is manga after all.

12. Long hair or short hair?

Both are fine. It really depends on the personality, type of hair, hair colour and such random stuff. I generally prefer male characters with hair that are long, though, but I tend to favour drawing males with semi-long hair. Females preferably should have long hair (lol, stereotype much?).

13. Plastic or metal?

It would help if I understand what this question was going on about...but metal, thank you. It's shinier.

14. Smells good?

OF COURSE. Unless he's a hobo or something. That's forgivable.

15. Smoker?

NO. But the act of sticking a twig between the index and middle finger and holding one end of the twig to his mouth does appeal quite a bit. Hands would be quite empty otherwise. If he was a real dude who stepped out of a manga or something, definite no. NO SMOKING OR YOU PAY THE FINE! Also, I am sensitive to air pollution, so yeah.

16. Drinker?

No thanks. Unless it's vital to the plot or something. Have you ever seen a 17 year old manga character downing beer like there's no tomorrow because his girlfriend broke up with him or he flunked a ridiculously hard Math test?

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?

What? What does that mean?

18. Muscular?

Well-defined, please, but no overwhelming muscle definition. That'll be hideous. Gosh, imagine... I like male characters slightly on the thin side, as mentioned above. Or they can have no muscle definition at all. Females should NOT have too much muscle definition...definitely not.

19. Plays piano?

Yes. That'll be a nice bonus. He should have an appreciation for the arts. I like class (no, not class as in lessons, class as in elegance).

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?

Bass! I like the type of characters who are important but also rather background characters. Meaning that no one notices their importance, so when they die everyone's world crumbles apart and they finally realise their dependency on this character, but all is too late...MUAHAHAHAHA!

21. Plays violin?

Violins are nice additions to portraits. They look good. They sound good too, very soulful, so if the character is one who is more in touch with his/her spiritual self, I say go for it.

22. Sings very well?

YES. I also like characters who stand out. A lot. You know the way lead singers are always the ones being crushed on? Yes, same concept (minus the crush).

23. Vain?

Haha. Maybe. *laughs* I wouldn't mind if he/she has quality to back up their claims. I also like characters who have lots of self-confidence, though not so much that their heads could lift them into the air. This vain-ness, of course, should last only up till something serious occurs, then he/she should completely forget about it and focus on the task at hand. Show your serious side!

24. With glasses?

Ooh. Nice. Guys would be nice with them. Girl...not quite. I'm not exactly sure why glasses look good, but maybe they do cover up flaws in facial proportions after all...huh. I'm gonna draw much more glasses from now on, although my glasses suck.

25. With braces?

Are you asking if I mind them or if I like them? I think braces are quite nice. They make a character easier to remember and define them better. It makes the character unique, and they also have one more thing to complain about!

26. Shy type?

Oh, I like both extremes. The flamboyant and the shy, both appeal greatly as characters. They have their own quirks and personality definition that makes them SO fun to manipulate... *insert evil cackle*

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?

Both. Extreme again. Rebels are...cool. The nerds are...I dunno. But they are cool too in a much less outgoing sense. They're kinda docile, I guess, but there's nothing wrong. Oh! I get it, the nerds wear glasses more. So...I side with the nerds, maybe.

28. Active or passive?

Both, and neither. Don't make me decide! They're all great in their own way! The active make mangas much more dynamic and faster moving, the passive tend to focus on character development and the people in the middle are...a fine balance of both. I like action, psychological and school life manga just fine, thank you, provided the art proves to be satisfactory.

29. Tight or bomb?

Uh...both, again. Uptight people are fun. Their reactions are really great to make fun of. What's a bomb kind of person?

30. Singer or dancer?

Both? I think mangas about singers tend to revolve around spiritual aspects, like soul in the song and meaning of its words being conveyed through the tone of voice and everything. Dance is more of a physical thing, and the bodyline can be quite beautiful sometimes.

31. Stunner?

Yes, but hopefully not too much. It'll totally take the attention away from the plot (assuming the plot is good in the first place).

...or do you mean that gun in Star Trek where they use to momentarily render someone numb and immobile?

32. Hiphop?

Um, sure? This technically does fall under dance, right?

33. Earrings?

Oh, YES. Refer to whatever I said about piercings somewhere up, up above. I think earrings look great on certain kind of guys, and they're very nice things to add if you find your female character too plain or something.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?

Uh...that would be an interesting character. Kind of like a gigolo or some play-boy, right? They'll be very fun and interesting to portray and/or read about. In a sense that they provide lots of comic relief, but on the other hand, there can also be a deeper, psychological meaning where they are not secure enough and yada yada, and the plot can thicken and so on. I like both.

35. Dimples?

Does that matter?

36. Bookworm?

Ooh, yes. Smart characters are good, remember? Of course, natural smarts is important as well, but we cannot deny the power of rummaging through thick volumes of Encyclopaedias and gaining fresh new insights to this rapidly changing world around us, no? Bookworms are good.

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?

Uh...if the love letter moves me, why not? I like manga that pull on my heartstrings. I seem to be reading a lot of these nowadays, and I'm loving it. I like that feeling of...oh, I don't know, of some sort of pang in your chest or something. It feels like I'm human, not that I don't know that I'm human, but well. Everyone likes some assurance.

38. Playful?

The kind that don't study for exams and still get good grades? Sure. The kind that likes to tie little ponytails out of some serious dude's nice blond hair? Go ahead. The kind that goes through girls like, I don't know, everyday? Well, I guess they're okay if they have some psychological trauma that's making them do that.

39. Flirt?

Uh, okay? I'm not particular about this or anything. You can be a gay for all I care, just don't rub your gayness off onto me. I'm Christian, 100% Christian. I do not want to be stained by yaoi or yuri. Oh, NO. *shudders*

40. Poem writer?

Ha, YES! Okay, I'm really into moving the heart and these kind of things recently. Everything about passive shows of affection to affection that is completely hidden (see Lelouch during the execution of the Zero Requiem, gosh, he's so...tsundere? Not really, but I just like the way he tries his best for those he loves). I like nice, enchanting, delicate (wow, so unlike me), meaningful, floaty kind of poetry. Flowery language, maybe? Of course, dark poems with a touch of class are great too.

41. Serious?

Oh, that, and those who completely lack serotonin

42. Campus crush?

Hey, who am I to dictate what goes on in their love lives? If it kinda gives them trauma or makes their personality interesting, way to go.

43. Painter?

Ooh! Nice! I'd like to learn from him, if I can, but seeing as the characters are in mangas...well, if they have deep meanings in their paintings, I say leave them be.

44. Religious?

That'll be nice, if the religion was Christianity.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?

Yes, yes, YES! Oh, those characters really are interesting!

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?

I don't really see the difference, but I suppose that would be cool. Think 'The World God Only Knows'. That guy is anti-social to the maximum because of gaming, but I think it's cool.

47. Speaks 20 languages?

Oh, great!

48. Loyal or faithful?

This is a prized characteristic. Characters who are unable to feel attached to something tend to be a little sad. Of course, I think that those kinds of characters have their own merits too, like being able to write sad poetry (oh, what's with me and poetry). Well, it would be nice to have a really faithful and loyal character though.

49. Good kisser?

That would matter how?

50. Loves children??

Haha, doesn't matter. Depends on if he's intending to have kids in the future, but preferably yes, I guess, although I won't hate him if he doesn't.



Erm...I tag...Kimberly (Art Club), Zann, and whoever else wants to do it. I mean...how many exactly can I tag?